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You’ve done some amazing things for me in the past. You gave me so many opportunities in my life. For instance, you got me to stand on tables in SF to get people to look up from their beers and coffees while I was singing. Thank you! You got me to dance on stage when I was really afraid to and take my shirt off in front of people when I didn’t feel good about myself. You gave me a boost when no one else did and I can never re-pay you for those great parts of my life.
Here’s the BUT…I’m sorry but I have to ask you to leave. Maybe this is a good time for you to catch up with some old friends, arrogance and vanity and you can hit the slopes in Aspen or something? I’m not asking you to leave forever. I just need some space. It’s not you. It’s me. I mean I think we’re growing apart. I think you might need a younger man, someone who wants to go out and hit the town, someone who is in pursuit of a career as a critic for Rolling Stone perhaps. Maybe you could find your true love among the greats in professional sports that don’t sign autographs for kids because they are “busy” or “exhausted”. There’s got to be an actor out there that you can hold and be held by.
Look, Ego, we had a great run. I just don’t trust you anymore. I don’t trust myself around you any more. I’ve been wanting to see someone else. I know I know. Its hard for me too. I’m not cheating on you but I’d be lying if I didn’t admit I’ve wanted to. We’re living separate lives. I feel like we had so much in common when I was drinking and feeling self righteous. I’m scared too. We’ve been together for a long time, me expecting attention, love, praise and respect and you telling me that it was my right to have those things. All those moments of wanting recognition for my achievements and you telling me how everyone is stupid who doesn’t give it to me. I appreciate your efforts but it’s time for us to say goodbye.
I’ve packed your stuff and you should pick it all up tonight. I won’t be there when you come by. I don’t want to be tempted to want you to stay. Please don’t call me or email me. Maybe somewhere down the line we can be friends. For now, we need to move on and find ourselves again. I’m going to be seeing others, humility, appreciation and forgiveness to mention a few. I hope the best for you. I’m sure you’ll make someone very happy. I will always remember the good times and I will smile knowing that we had a great love. I hope you can forgive me some day but knowing you it’s not likely..
So, I’m off. Be well, Ego. And if you have the time maybe you can shove it up your ass! Thanks!

Love, Pat