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Convince someone to want to be here on earth?
Make someone feel essential?
Love someone enough to change how they feel about themselves?
Delay or prevent family/friends heartache?
Talk someone into life?
Talk someone out of giving up?

Do you feel like once someone makes a decision to be gone, that’s it? I’ve always thought that people who leave early due to their own choice couldn’t be helped. In my life experience, the ones I’ve lost this way surprised everyone. Whether they were never happy or depressed or suffering or hopeless, they never let anyone know.
Convincing someone to be happy seems as likely as convincing someone to fly. It’s easy to help someone carry something but so crazy hard to ask someone to carry on.
The thought of taking my own life came and went once or twice as a teenager but was instantly met with all sorts of reasons to stay and search for answers and joy.
Some people claim to have never been happy. I wish I could wipe away the darkness that some people live in.
Humans are so delicate, so awful, so beautiful, so broken and so perfect. Oh how I wish there was a way to bring joy to everyone, even just everyone in my small circle of life.
And so I will wait. I will hope. I will pray my own kind of prayer. I will love and want all good things for all of us and let the universe take who she needs and leave the rest to clean up and move on and grow and teach and cry and remember and still after all that not know one thing about how to have done any of it differently.

Pat